Just read a really good article about how side hustling is killing our creative vibes. I totally agree.
I remember a time (fondly) when I used to write with abandon. I got an idea and I ran hard with it. I was in love. Seriously. My world revolved around my story.
Now that I’ve entered the publishing realm- the Land of No Return- I feel as if someone has stolen my fire. I criticize all of my ideas, pit it against what’s going on in the “industry”. Inevitably, everything I want to write about isn’t good enough.
Then, when I do get an idea that I believe has merit, it doesn’t take long for me to question it. Usually by chapter four or five. Then I put it down and wallow. I go back and forth between partially done novels constantly now.
I wish I’d never gotten serious about publishing. I wish I still wrote for myself.
Hoping I can get back there one day.