I Can’t Stop!

Being myself. So, I’m going to be real right now. Not that I’m ever fake, and that’s what I’m talking about. I hear a lot of people talk about facades and how we seek authenticity, but find it hard to be authentic. I’ve actually found it harder to not be me. I’ll give you an…

Hypothetical Living

I’ve been doing a bout of soul-searching.  Seemed appropriate in my 40th year.  One of the things I’ve realized is how much I like to live in the “possible”. Do you ever think “wouldn’t it be nice if this is what my life looked like”?  For instance- owning your own business, buying your dream house,…

Yelling at a Wall

A lack of ears, only mouths, that sneer, or deride. Repeated soliloquies, I anticipate every note. Mine aren’t of your concern. Of course not. I take care of my own, don’t I? Forced to- held down and rubbed in it. I’m dying here, literally. Was bleeding out. What about me, you say? Too concerned about…

Defining Home

  Just read this article: On Finding my Way Home Home has been a topic that I’ve dissected many times.  It’s a theme in my novels.  To most people, it’s close to the heart. This article spoke of how it feels to be in limbo.  Feeling as if you don’t belong in your “home” country,…

Let’s Get Real: Busyness

Just read this article on Wit & Delight: Busy is Not a Badge of Honor It got me thinking about our culture of Busyness.  It’s true that if I’m not busy, I feel like I’m floundering.  Like I don’t know what to do with myself.  If I don’t feel productive, I’m unsettled. But what does…

Say What You Mean

Just to further explain my last post- because I realized it wasn’t clear- I don’t undervalue education.  Education is very important.  However, there is a point where the education you are paying for isn’t worth what you are paying.  That’s where I believe we’re at in this country. The degree I earned didn’t prepare me…

The Grey Area

  I find I exist in the grey. It’s where I want to be. There is no black or white. No science or spirit. There is no left or right, Elvis or Beatles. There are always questions, seldom answers. That’s the way I like it. I don’t need to be surrounded by the same color….

The Essence of Travel

Just came upon this article today: A Love Letter to Paris It really hit on the purpose of travel.  What does travel bring to your life?  What makes the airfare worth it? To me, it’s about discovering a place.  The life and breath of a dot on the map.  Cities and towns are like organisms-…

Let’s Get Real: Opinion Vs. Fact

In a similar vein to my last post, I felt it was a good time to touch on this subject.  It seems that, lately, the line between opinion and fact has faded to the point where we don’t know where one ends and the other begins anymore. Let’s look at definitions (taken from Google): Opinion…

Let’s Get Real: Judgment and Criticism

I’ve gotten to a stage in my life where I don’t want to condemn and judge people based on their life choices.  I tend to take a back seat now, watching and learning from afar.  And if I notice someone doing something I believe might lead them on an unsavory path, I don’t intervene with…

Caged In

Just a stream of consciousness musing on the state of some of my affairs: Tell me what to do, Since you know so much better than me. Show me how to be an acceptable human in your eyes. I know I only make bad decisions, Because that’s the only thing I’ve ever been told. I…